What My mom probably thinking

My mother, recently a little too nervous. I wake up and say "good morning", but she replies something like "Do this", "Don't do this", such as "clean your room" instead of saying "good morning". So is my sister experiencing this. If this does not end, quarrel never ends. I can stand with that, but my sister can't; that they just keep fighting.

But, I don't know what she is thinking about. Why bother say something offensive in the morning. She wasn't that nervous before. There must be some changes she had. What is she thinking? I'll consider this as if I were in her shoes.

I am mother. I have a son and a daughter, both of them are university student, they both go to private school which means the tuition is high. And they eat a lot. And my son doesn't speak a lot, while my daughter speaks too much. My son does something weird everyday, does he have a friend? Computer is a friend? he doesn't even work. he used to work. But, he studies a lot, and his grades are good. But he failed to get scholarship which I expected a lot. My daughter, doesn't study a lot, she is lazy.
Wow,, I have to work everyday for a living. not for me, for my kids who are not perfect to me. What is about my life? Is my life for my kids? I am feeding them, that I am not equal to them. I am greater than them. They must obey what I say. but they don't!!

Maybe this is something my mom is thinking about and why she is so nervous. She is nervous because she wants us to be perfect, and our incompleteness stands out to her, and that gets her nerves. And she doesn't have enough free time that her mind is full of stress.

I noticed interesting implication of what I did so far. Reflecting myself by pretending to be someone else. As I wrote about myself as mom, I felt something different. I felt I am looking myself from the sky. Maybe this is useful method to recognize the status of me properly. Especially, this is useful to get a picture of me from other's perspective. Because, in the previously used method, we recognize ourself from our perspective which of course we know ourselves well. This will sketch the picture what others see us. Of course, the picture differs depending on who sees that, but more exercises will reveal the general picture of me.

However, this is experimental method. I'll try this later.