What is the right thing to do?

I watched tv program that was about very cruel accident happened in Akashi city 10 years ago.
That day, very big festival was held there , and a lot of people went there. And that happened on pedestrian overpass full of people. There , no signs to lead people to go in the same way, like people going to the station keep right, and people on the bridge were not able to move. And more and more people went on the bridge, and people in the middle started to fell in the ground and that lead people around them fell into the ground. and that continued chain-reactionly. And 9 were deceased because of too much pressure they get from the crowd.
The problem is , insufficient security. There were police men around there and security company held responsibility. But no one went to help and stop the chaos. Police passed the buck to the security company, and the security company did same. Finally, 5 were accused and sentenced guilty, but the chief and the deputy were not accused.

I felt the anger and sadness of bereaved families. But, they should have known that could happen any time, because this world is full of contingency. Having child is very responsible action. TV program was like all responsibility is police and the security company, but it is not completely correct. Parents should be careful danger of circumstances for children.
But of course, most of responsibility are police. I wish accidents like this will never happen.

Identity ashame

My mother is from Taiwan. And when I was small, around 8 years old, when I was in elementary school, I was shamed of my mixed race, half Japanese,half Taiwanese. I don't know why, but I could not say this to my friends. I think it because if I said that, I would be bullied.
Now, I live in a liberal democratic society which upholds the equality and justice, and I understand that principle. But, ethnomethodological research, which analyzed daily life discursive conversation or speech, finds out that how prevalent the existance of prejudice of race and culture difference among us!! while we upholds equality. why? I think everybody does not believe our principles unconsiously. But we dont want to admit that because we've got reason and moral fiber which were not obtained when we were child. Children are faithful to their unconcious.
In conclusion, we have prejudice in our mind. But I want to get that out of my mind!!
How can we do this? I think we can do this. I think time will tell only when we have peace.

Shiwake

Today, Tokyo Japan. It is like a mid-June warm day. In the way to my home from library after studying a lot, tired, I went through the very big park with green lawn. This type of park is very rare in Tokyo. maybe this park is small compared to America etc.. but very nice park. full of sunshine, warm, clean , and......DOG!! I love dog. I want one. I saw a dog looks really smart. I saw the owner throw ball and the dog go and get it and retrieve it to the owner. This is what I want to play if I have a dog. I wanna take a walk with my dog in San Fransisco.
SF is really nice city. lots of sloping roads, beautiful sight, nice climate, and Alcatraz and Golden gate bridge!! I went there while summer vacation of 2009. Alcatraz was horrorable.

Is there woman really?

I'm taking a class about language. This is the class for English learner. But most of my classmates are returnee mostly from United States. Only 3 people in the class, are born and educated in Japan. And we have discussion in English , this is passion for me!! I read article every week, and discuss about that. It's challenging every time , I am sure it will help improve my English ability.
Today , we discussed about gender and language. written by Cameron. Main point of the article was that there is no definite gender, there is no really woman or man. Gender is socially constructed. That is clear with the example of gay and lesbian and bisexual. Biological sex exists,but gender socially constructed does not exist. Every one has different ideal of gender. And social ideal gender is changing. For example ,　草食系男子 , or vegetable men.
It is interesting what makes better image of gender, I mean , for example ,ideal character of salesman exists, that has feminine character , interpersonal skills, communication skills which are more distinctive character of women, because women acquired this in order to survive while men hunt animal or go to war. So salesperson tend to use woman-like language. But it is interesting that how do they know woman-language while they have not learned before.
The function of brain is wonderful!! How flexible it is!! Why do billions of neurons makes this wonderful function?
Anyway, today's discussion gave me new insight toward things. Not only gender, a lot of things don't have definition. I am keep going

Care of contingency

We live in the world full of contingency. We might die in 5 second hit by car suddenly, we might lose our house in a fire. We never know. If we were not optimistic, we can not move out worrying what might be occur. By becoming optimistic, we can live without too much fear by dealing with contingency. "Do it now" this is what I can't do. I hesitate to do worrying of failure. Of course, I know I can't make sure to do something with a success every time. But I have to do now! because TIME IS LIMITED!! This is the work of emotion. Like we may fail, but.......Let's go!! This is important. This attitude. This optimistic attitude. This confidence without reasons. Diving into the ocean of diversity and contingency is something scary sometimes. But in the ocean , there are a lot of beautiful things that we can't see from the cliff.
In the sea, search serendipity and grab it. And I will know how beautiful this life is.