Justice Michael Sandel

Professor at Harvard, Michael Sandel is now in Japan after boom of his lecture that was broadcast on NHK. His lecture was much like conversation. Asking very difficult to take side question that let us have contradiction and conflict in our mind. For example, if you were the driver of trolley car, and there are 5 workers, and you notice that the break does not work, but workers does not notice. But you can change the direction but on the other direction there is one worker. Is that right thing to do to kill 1 for 5?? This kind of question mess up our mind. Michael call this reckless of rationale.
Revealing we think and make decision on what we based on. And that assumption can be wrong. There is no correct answer. But by doing deep consideration, we can participate in society, politic, and pursuit our happiness.
There is no wonder why this lecture became so popular in Japan. Not having people that have strong opinion or unique opinion on everything on TV or politic. The way they pursuit Justice was attractive. The idea that it is all about perspective. and how they build up their discussion. Especially I was amazed at the quality of students at Harvard. Everyone was not scared to express their opinion, and the fact that they have their opinion. I've got to imitate them. Their basic attitude to have curiosity to everything around us.
Now he is in Japan, and did 2nd lecture in Japan, and that was broadcast through internet and could be watched. There were more than 30000 viewers. And I watched that. And I was disappointed by the participants. most of them did not argue the exact point. And I felt, discussion needs not only good leader but also high level qualified participants. And I also be scared that I might be like this. and I will not be like this. I have to have strong opinion. have curiosity.

My dear sister has come back home after 3 weeks

My sister participated in the summer camp that I also participated 5 years ago. Requirement is that at least one parent is from Taiwan and living out of Taiwan. They are called "kakyo".
She said it was really fantastic experience. She is now watching facebook. lol
I also remembered the fun experience I had. The room was dormitory style, and my roommate was 2 Canadians and 1 German and 1 Japanese. That was my very first time feeling internationalism in retrospect. First I had of course problem communicating. I could not tell them what I wanted to tell. But luckily I brought my electronic dictionary. So little by little, I could communicate better. But I wonder why I could communicate with them so well in retrospect. Because I was 16 and my English was veeeery poor. Now I realized the ability of communication is not perfectly related to the amount of time spent to study. Communication does not work with one-sided approach. With both willingness to communicate, that will be possible. But without least knowledge that is not posssible.
In retrospect, after this camp, I really started to have interest in communicating with people from around the world. And actually I started studying English hard.
I hope her experience will be like this principle and incentive.

What I suddenly remember

There are strong and weak memories, and even memories that can not be remembered. I think we have to care about strong memories. Often suddenly some memories come up, and we don't know why. But that phenomenon must have meanings. Brain always work and organize memories. all memories are stored but not everything is needed.
Recently, I remembered my old acquaintances of elementary school. He moved before graduation, and I only remember him talking about nuclear power very proudly. And he lost almost all teeth because of cavity.
and one more memory, 1 year older guy who was really bad, his brother was the boss of bike gangs.　I lent him a book featuring Pokemon and he returned it washed in washing machine. He was really irritating.
But does all these memories have important meanings???? I don't think so but there must be.
Also, what we dream contains meanings from unconcious. this makes sense because when we sleep, our concious does not work. But when we awake what produces that memories suddenly appear.
What part of our brain organize memories???

August 15, 65 years has passed since the end of war

It has been 65 years since WW2 ended. I imagine what the scenery was like from here where I live now, and I feel very strange by doing that.There were dramas of struggle and fear and sadness and maybe little hope. I've heard that there was military base near here. Elderly woman living in the rear of my house told me. And about 2km away from here, there was big stadium, there all soldiers got together and held send-off party.
All survivors of WW2 are going to die, there will be very few people who went through that tough time in 2 or 3 decades. I am afraid of war story will gradually disappear or not paid any attention someday. War can happen at any time because human are created to fight. Killing each other is not rare custom of animal. But by science advances, being rational, we can accomplish peace.
There are some who says peace can not be achieved. I don't agree. There is nothing that can be imagined but can not be achieved. As a member of Japan, which uphold its article 9. I want to persue of getting peace by earning big money. Certain power and safe-base are needed to explore.

Having conversation through internet

Internet has changed everything, I use service that offer environment of practicing talking. talk with phillipina at very low price. Without internet I could not have chances like this. Considering nature of language, first hand experience is necessary, and more of that, more fluent I can speak.
I aim to have conversation for 500 hours. 1 lesson takes about 30 minutes so 1000 lessons. That goal will be completed 1 and half year. Also, that might not be enough. If so, I do more. 1000 hours or 2000 hours. Fluency is making my English automatic. Fastering the speed of response. In order to do that, how much I practice is everything. More I read , more I read faster and understand better. More I listen , more I can listen well. More I write, more I can write well and correct.
What I have to do is taking shower of English, what baby has been through. Taking shower that interesting to you is the fastest way according to brain scientist Kenichi Mogi. He changed my mindset of studying, everything starts with brain. All I see and think is made by brain. Effectiveness must be related to the ability of brain. When I feel ambivalence, I have to make my brain happy. That is the best way to get effectiveness and the best results!

Today, I talked with teacher Jo, she was too talkative so that I could not speak a lot. Good teacher should let student talk. But, I am going to lead conversation. I will.
I want to talk well not only in English but my mother tongue Japanese. Talking is important I really feel recently. My cold attitude toward my father. If I lose him someday, I am gonna regret so much. Why I have become like this? He is my only father. Talk to him. I know he really cares about me. I know. Talk about myself, what happened today, what you are interested in, what you think. Show him my appreciation. like I do to my mom.

Feeling jalous→do my own business

I sometimes feel jalous of others mostly succeed in academic and romantic thing. I stop doing things I need to do improve by becoming full of jalousy in my mind. But I realized that human are made to feel jalous. because all man is incomplete. disadvantage and advantage. To fill the hole of my ability, I search it and I find it owned by someone. that is inevitable.
Feeling jalous, I have to keep moving to overcome that. Doing nothing is the worst way of removing sadness. In terms of English, I feel strong jalous to a lot of people who are returnee. I feel like I started late. But I have to do more to overcome that.

Yesterday, I watched tv program that is documentary of the new film from ジブリstudio. featuring how the new film "借りぐらしのアリエッティ" was made and the struggle of the director" I saw the director was conflicting with the other old makers. he did not gives in and went through his own idea. result is what everyone need.

Also, the sense of doing immediately is very important. We can earn immediate concentration. If you decide to do something, DON'T do that 30 minutes later of after watching this tv program. Do it immediately, jump right into your work. OK

Jane Eyre

I've read one book titled "Jane Eyre" very famous classic story. I read this as the first book of reading a lot campaign in 2010 summer!!( participant is me only).

I did not enjoy it at all, the heroine was very strong but I did not feel that her character gives me any lesson. Actually I dont like story, fiction. I will read more interesting one next time.