Own Domain

I went to Tsukiji fish market this morning to buy not fish, but vegetables and fruits. I was really overwhelmed by people there. The way people talk, move, behave was a little rude compared to normal stores in Tokyo. But their energy was something similar to that of Taiwan. The feeling of people "living" was there. And I noticed 2 things being there.
First, I am living on someone else's work. I do nothing about living, doing everything that's possible when living is secured such as using computer, learning English, and etc. And that's why I felt uneasy being there because I felt I am powerless there, seeing my mother and father buying foods for our living and people selling for living. And this also made me realize one more finding.
There is a individually different domain for each person. Everyone has different field that one can release a lot of energy while not in other field. For people there, business or selling vegetables is there domain. For me, doing computer is maybe my domain. Even though I feel amplified energy while doing that, am I as energetic and passionate as people at Tsukiji? Sometimes yes, sometimes no. I now know that I have to be more passionate about this. I know a lot of successful people really like their field by having a strong passion. And with that, they face obstacles but they strengthen their passion.

By Next time I go there, can I be able to be a person who don't feel uneasy being there? Am I a person who are strong for living?
I was a little far away from the fact we have to live by myself. My parents now feed me, but they will be gone sometime. I knew this, but I was keeping away from that. Let me be strong. I've got to be.