Incentives matter

What I did yesterday was very little. And that kind of day regularly comes. It is often Saturday, after 5 school days, and I get really released, and I do very useless things. That kind of days is necessary sometimes I think, but it continued too much. So I wanna fix it.
If my incentives were based on really pure curiosity, and that is strong enough, I think I didn't have those days. I think my incentives are really for others, such as parents, relatives, friends. It was just like pride I wanna show it off. Pride of how far I've been. How great things I got be able to do. These pride things are important of course. I've got these as incentives. But these are not enough, and the rate of those are a little too much.
The most necessary incentives I need is curiosity toward my major. I like the field, and I feel fun studying CS/Hardware/Software Engineering/Communication. But, these my incentives are pressured by my incentives of pride. My curiosity should go first, and pride should come later and support and pin it.
I have to change the strength balance of my incentives. That will make my curiosity grows. For example, if I want to go to study abroad, the incentives should curiosity, like I can learn something that can not be acquired in Japan, or what is it like life in the foreign country, etc. the main Incentive should not a pride, like going abroad is something becomes your status, or a lot of smart people go study abroad and me either.
Everything I think about, first I have to have a curiosity. Why/How things are important. Sometimes pride become obstacle of curiosity, if you don't understand something, and wanna ask your teacher/friends. But pride interfere. But if your curiosity is strong enough, that obstacle is there for you to overcome. Remember the students at Stanford, what they asked contained some "Why doesn't know" things. But so what? your curiosity gets satisfied. This is why your curiosity grows faster after it becomes big enough. Let my curiosity come out, let it go.